A day in my life....Jean shopping *&^%# that!

I was trying to think how I could write this and not be so darn serious. Because it truly is serious but at the same time, humor tends to create clarity. So here we go....

Close your eyes for a moment....

Take a deep breathe....

Ready....

Set....

Go!

Jean Shopping....the most interesting experience out there....    

Now envision someone not a typical size 6 or smaller....yep that is me...

Get the picture?

Excerpt on inner dialogue.

"I am so fat..."

" God damn it..

" Look, my ass is huge!"

After ten pairs tried on... Sweat is now pooling under arms... running down middle of back...

"Fuck this."

Heart is starting to feel broken...

Tears are threatening....

"I am so ugly."

"Why can't I just freaking loose weight."

"No one makes jeans for me."

"I hate how I look."

"I hate my ass"

"I am such a fucking looser."

Jeans are now piled in a corner...

"Why can't I just be normal?"

"Why did I have to be so fucking big?"

Wipes away tears while staring in the mirror...

Flips the finger at one's self and slams out of dressing room....

Feels completely humiliated and a shamed....

Goes home and eats a full bowl of ice cream...

Parting shot....

"Screw wearing jeans, I will wear what I have...."

Have you ever felt shamed when you go clothing shopping? Have you beat yourself up to a pulp and left the store nearly in tears? Why is fashion so determined to make those of us who do not have "normal" body types feel so horrible? Isn't it time that someone started to change that? How can I as a clothing designer meet the needs of "not normal" sized people?

Isn't it time that we as women begin to let the fashion industry know we are tired of their narrow ways of thinking? Why should we have to wear horribly ugly clothing that isn't made right, looks like you threw a bag over your shoulders just because we are not a size 6? Something to think about ladies... write me a message if you have something to say about this. I would love to hear your points of view... lets start a conversation and stop shaming ourselves because we don't "fit in!"

~ Jeannine